
I have no reason for this post, but it’s nearly 5am and I can’t sleep.
I’ve been thinking about the emotion of guilt lately and how I’ve come to find its uselessness rather perplexing. Think about it. Think about the last time you felt guilty about anything. I mean, really felt guilty. Feel your heart empty. Feel your eyes water with regret. I’ll bet it was pretty awful. Now think about how that has benefitted you in your life. Did you really need to feel that awful? And was the reason for it even worth feeling that guilty over? Did you do anything wrong that warranted you to feel that way in the first place?
So, what good does guilt serve to us as a human race? Most people would say it serves to make us feel remorseful for immoral actions, so that we might not repeat them in the future. On the contrary, however, it seems that most offenses that illicit a sense of guilt are committed more than once. From terrible sins such as adultery, to popular sins like drinking alcohol, to simple, everyday sins like lying - guilt certainly succeeds in making people feel bad, but not bad enough to stop doing whatever made them feel that way.
And then there’s the argument that guilt is felt by those who are good, because it reminds them of their humanity. In other words, to feel guilty is know you are human, that you have a conscience and a heart, and this is a good thing. I beg to differ. If I could choose to feel guilty and be a “good person” or not feel any guilt and be labeled an asshole, then elect me President of the United States and call me George Bush, cuz I will choose to be an asshole without hesitation. Besides, what good does the emotion offer to someone who already is a good person? The people who need to feel guilty are the ones out there doing all the bad shit. Murdering babies, raping women, and stealing elections. Those people need to be feeling the guilt, not me.
Ok, I get it. Yes, I know that if we didn’t feel guilt then we’d all be assholes and the world would be a very dismal place. But true, deep-seated guilt is debilitating. It’s paralyzing. It makes us regret our existence and sends us into a spiral of self pity that no one benefits from except, maybe, a psychiatrist. But why?
We are we the only species on earth who feel guilty. Animals have no use for it. It’s not biologically beneficial. Sure animals feel sadness. They feel loneliness. But they do not feel guilt. Reprimand a dog for eating your shoes and it will whimper, but that’s not out of guilt. That’s from fear.
But hey, maybe that’s where guilt comes from. Fear that God will punish us for not feeling bad for what we’ve done…or didn’t do (not fast, not pray, lying and telling the homeless man on the street you didn’t have any change even though you did, cuz you thought he’d buy crack with it…etc.)? So I can perceive the origin of guilt. But still, that fear isn’t enough to stop us from doing it again. Besides, there are atheists who have no fear of God and yet still experience guilt. Furthermore, isn’t guilt also a product of society? I know we’d feel guilty for committing adultery here, but in some states in Africa it’s a common practice for a man to have sex with several different women openly.
So where does this meaningless feeling come from? Why must we experience this aching in our heart if it yields no apparent redeeming outcome? And most importantly, how do you get rid of it?
–oj